Fear of Being Alone?!

Hubby just said goodbye and switched his phone off as his airplane is departing Atlanta for a 2 week long business trip. As I watched him leave, I felt a huge part of me break and I just felt so defeated. I felt like I wouldn't be able to survive without him home. All of these thoughts rushed around my head- What would I do? Who would I talk to? What if I get lonely at night? Was there ever a time when I felt this anxious to say goodbye to a person?

I told myself that I'm feeling this way because I never lived by myself before- I always had my parents, or my roommates, or my husband. But then I just remembered 6 months of my life where I lived alone in a foreign country. I was able to live by myself in Korea and did perfectly fine. I have friends and family in Atlanta and have no reason to be so anxious.

Most of all, I realize that this is the perfect time to rely on God. I think this is a message from God to stop and rely on Him for comfort and strength. Why worry about being lonely before bed when I can talk to Him? These next two weeks, I am so excited to rely on my Father. The Bible is my food, water, and sword against anything in this world that threatens me. I know this should be how I should feel all the time but right now, I just feel God drawing me nearer to Him.

I felt so much comfort when I read Hebrews chapter 1 because it reminded me of how perfect my Savior is. “Your throne, O God, is forever and ever. You, Lord, laid the foundation of the earth in the beginning, and the heavens are the work of your hands; they will perish, but you remain; they will all wear out like a garment, like a robe you will roll them up, like a garment they will be changed. But you are the same, and your years will have no end.”

Everything I am scared of losing will perish! I have to seek comfort in knowing that God will take care of me forever because He is the same and His years will have no end.